"i.nspire wha wha"

what doesn't kill me, makes me stronger.

Saturday, December 12, 2009

3 more days left of school, mhmm. So my getaway start from.. TODAY! Yes thats right[:

Mhmm. I wonder how K's doing. I haven't seen him online for quite sometime. And I have a feeling you've been reading my blog, eventhough you said you don't. Lols. All the best. :)

"...why whenever we have a fight, im begging you to stayyyy
why when everything is alright, it only last a day
your never satisfied with nothing that I provide
and I cant live that way.."

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Tuesday, December 01, 2009

I feel like I'm over everything. Honestly. I hate school, I hate the fact that I still have 2 weeks of school left. I hate that Maths is getting harder each time I open up the book. I hate that I've only got $38 in my bank account. I hate how I miss Singapore. I hate how People depend on me but never bother to ask how I am. Man I hate the fact that I can still sit here and write on about how much I'm hating life.

Mehh, I need an escapade. Where I'd just lay down somewhere, without thoughtless words coming out from anyone's mouth. I'm so sick of insensible conversations, in school and outside. Take me away someone, far away. Pay for my flights. I promise, I'd stay with you forever.

Bleh, Sorry Adeeba for opening up too much about how I feel, in the train today. Sorry for being emotionally unhealthy and letting everything eating me up. I feel helpless sometimes, cause I've got no one to talk too.

You know what? I'll make an oath now, which is not bother to them who never bother. Cause I'm so sick of tryna be there, but It has never work both ways.

I need my sleep. XOXO.

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Wednesday, November 25, 2009

"you are so amazing

you stepped in and saved my life

everytime we are together

my time is yours forever

my world is all yours

i dont wanna end up in your rearview

wanna be someone you can turn to

baby i never wanna lose you

theres nothing i wont do "

So I set up a whole list on what I'll be doing in 2010. Lol. It was funny cause I pretty much wouldn't reach them standards. But You know, I'm a high believer, I believe if I keep on believing, no matter how long it takes, i'll get there.

These days, I feel really distant, and I found the reason why. It's actually cause I expect alot from everyone. More than they can give me, and if I dont get that, I'd actually leave. Its pathetic, but my ego keeps growing, and bigger than it was when I was in year 8. Man, rebellion actually made me who I am, and I'm glad I was a rebel. Lols.

So i'll be taking HSC next year, Or ATAR I must say. Mehh. I just wanna finish school, do the very best I can, with God's willing, And be with you, in freaking hot Singapore. :)

Aight I should get back to my maths notes. I will do the best I can. I'm sorry maths, you and me can never be best friends anymore, I lost interest in you. I'm sick of all the expressions which you expressed with the functions of quadratic and playing the discriminants. It kills me. HAHAHA. I should be a writer? No? Lol. I wouldn't even make that as a choice.

Good night me lovelies.

I love you Sayang. xx

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Tuesday, November 24, 2009

Dear 2009, please end soon.

It was great knowing all this people. But all this good times actually ended with breaking hearts and broken hearts. It's great while it lasted. If fated, we'll meet again. And enjoy our last moments together. Good friends, bestfriends, boyfriends, girlfriends. All the best.

Okay Imma dedicate this one to C, since I still think you're stalking me. Hey I might not see you again, or maybe I will. I know we don't live far from each other, but man we've fell apart. But anyhow, I know you're gonna go to New Zealand anytime soon, and you might settle down over there, be the best footy player, and obviously, your FANS. hahahahaha. I just wanna say, you're a wonderful person C, and thanks for being a bestfriend, a half that was always there for me. Showing me that life can be pretty random and you might not know what will be up next for ya. :) I know I'm gona miss you heaps, so will them others who you loved. I'm glad you realised that opportunities comes at the least expected, and I'm glad you're taking it. I have always been proud of you C. Again. All the best, till we meet again. xx

"...When you feel like giving up, feel like it's too much, feel like you had enough, You just gotta hold on..."

-DuSouth: Hold on.

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